A burning heart

 Sharing my heart today, letting down some walls and being vulnerable.

For the last year or so {maybe longer} i have felt a need for friendship. I mean real friendship not just surface level relationships im talking about real heart connections with other women. Lot has been going on in my life and sometimes i just need somebody to just vent to somebody i can be real with. I know i always have my husband and he truly is my best friend but he just cant be all that i need, if you know what i mean, women need other women were just wired that way. I have brought it to my husbands attention that i need  some girlfriends! and i ask  him does he feel the same ? He says " naw im good, i have you, your my best friend, the kids and Jesus." So with his answer i did, i started to re evaluate my feelings and set them aside i have tried just being content with my family and husband, but like i said  no matter how hard i try its just not enough. So of course i have taken the issue to the Lord and this is what He said:
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He took me to the time of Mary and Elizabeth.. And reminded me of  the time when Mary( a virgin) was pregnant with Jesus and Elizabeth( way too old to bear children) was pregnant with John the Baptist. Mary went  on a trip to visit Elizabeth and as i read the passages i could picture it all in my head.

 As Mary arrived  i could see them both running in excitement to each other with tears of joy running down their faces. Finally there was somebody, somebody who could understand, somebody who could really relate. There was such  relief they could be real with each other they didnt have to hide or put up a front , they could just be  vulnerable bearing it all. Not feeling judged or misunderstood but just feeling loved and accepted . And as they hugged each other they were in such amazement and begin to laugh with so much joy as they could feel the babies leap in their wombs.

"Wow" is what i said as i came out of that vision/daydream i guess you could call it. Then the Lord began to give me understanding.

Mary and Elizabeth going through similar situations at the same time both strong women of God in need of each other. Just in need of a friendship, a sisterhood where they could let it all out.
Both destined and chosen to give birth to Gods plan, not being understood by those around them. They needed to lean on each other cry with each other they needed each others support. Just as we as the  body of Christ ,we as brothers and sister, and we as women need each other.

 And then the Lord showed me that for us the babies in the womb represent our dreams, our visions, gifts ,talents, destiny. As we  come together as vulnerable people full of love for  each other our dreams began to move .And i began to see how important fellowship, friendship, community really is. Not just surface stuff where we have our walls up pretending we have it all together, but i mean the real thing. The kind of relationships where we can cry about the bad, laugh about the good and  dream about the future . Where we don't judge and there is  just love.

Praying for friendships and community like this <3